My Sincerest Apologies

I do apologize for the lack of entries as of late. My birthday has come and gone, and I have aged yet another year. The party that is supposed to be amazing is tomorrow (later today) and hopefully will be a success. I am in awe of how often things change, and cannot help but wonder what the purpose of this change is.

Astrologically speaking, I have heard that 2010 is supposed to be a year of transition, change. Perhaps this is my year of greatness. This is beginning to be more of a journal than an alleged blog, but alas, I am only human.

I am watching The Dark Crystal, watching the Skeksis attempt to be the predominant race. I'm watching them attempt genocide while the remaining two Gelflings inevitably conquer. It's rather dark for a children's movie, especially one with puppets.

I'm watching it as I am a "bed ridden insomniac," perhaps with not much else to do. However, I have my tiara. I have my dress. I have my party. It's going to be an amazing one, I hope. One to help me forget about the confusion I deal with everyday. As I don't have time for much else, the mind wanders into over-analytical prose and thoughts become muddled in a hurricane of both the acute and obscure.



Apart from my philosophical and personal questions, I take a step back and remember: this is one day. This year has come full circle and it's time I analyze my own actions to recognize the change and strides I have made. For my birthday is cause for celebration: I am alive and well, beyond my expectations. What I have right now is almost perfect.

Interesting fact: the term "soulmate" is derived from the ancient Greek. Supposedly, humans had four arms, four legs and two faces. Zeus, in a fit of jealousy, separated the human beings. Thus, we are in constant search of completing ourselves.

And I bid you adieu, until next time. And I hope you enjoy the midnight ramblings.